Every decision you make is a mistake

Happens to me every now and then.

I decide to leave work at 5pm and when the clock strikes five, I change my mind. Why? Clueless

I walk into a store to shop. I like couple of outfits and when its time to decide, I am not sure which one to pick. Why? Clueless

All through the week I wait for the weekend to do things which I can't do over weekdays. Finally when the weekend arrives I do nothing. Why? Clueless

"Change is the only thing that is constant" - But change even before doing anything is scary.

While writing this blog, I was browsing the internet and look what I found...
It is worthwhile to mention that sometimes the most intelligent, clear, and perceptive individuals are those who can also be described as "indecisive."

I am glad to be the way I am ;-)

Bolo Guru

It's not fair. It never is. Had this same movie been made by anyone else he would have been on a pedestal. Unfortunately it is not. It is Mani ratnam. From some people you expect the world, because more often then not, they have delivered it. From a director who gave us Mouna ragam, Nayagan, Roja and Dil se. A Guru? You still see the deft handling of relationship just like Mouna ragam. You still see the sensitivity of portrayal of the villian-hero just like Nayakan. But where is the picturisation of songs like in Roja and Dil se? Where is the attention to detail? Where is the boldness to say the things the way it is like Bombay?

Precisely for these reasons, Guru fails. You enjoy the raw confidence and support an ambitious guy like Guru through everything. You enjoy Guru's rise to Guru bhai even when he breaks laws. You expect a nice cat and mouse game between Abhishek and Madhavan. But it all fritters to lame ending where Guru turns out like a Govt's puppet capitalism professer... You still see his stamp on few scenes. Like the scene where Abhishek goes to ask for Aishwarya's hand. like when Abhishek and Aishwarya go back to their old house. when Madhavan asks for Vidya balan's hand, when Mithun comes to know about Abhishek's stroke. But as said, from Mani's stable you expect a winner everytime. Not scenes where Abhishek, Madhavan and Mithun sleep walk through their roles.

(See what the powerful speech in court by Abhishek turns out to be. hello, where was the scriptwriter?) But apart from few scenes, Abhishek has done an amazing job. And Aishwarya, in one of those rare roles, is tolerable.

As an ode to the movie, this post ends abruptly wtihout saying much... ;-)

To you...

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Yippie!!

Finally I have a camera to myself. I've always been fascinated by photography and now with my new toy, I'm sure to play around with it and sharpen my skills. I'm really excited to get started! But before I do, I must say "Thank you" :-)

Coming Back to Life

Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the waiting had begun
And headed straight..into the shining sun

Identity Crisis

As I stumbled over an article I was reading today on the internet, I remembered having a conversation with my mother few years ago.

"Mom, isn't it sad that dad and you have spent all your life making our life better? In the whole process, where did all your individuality go? Where did all the things you wanted to do in life go?"

"One of the biggest things we wanted to do in life is make your lives better. And that is exactly what we have done."

That got me thinking. Is this what a parent's life should be like? Devoting all your time, effort, love, money, care, support towards your children at any given instance since they are your utmost priority and responsibility? Somehow, that didnt convince me then and it still doesn't.
Giving birth to a life is a hugest responsibility which any individual can have in a life time. Making sure that you carry out your task without any flaws is what is expected of you. As a parent, you are the care taker of that life. But does that mean your life revolves around your child's life? I don't think so.

Relationships matter, families matter, love matters -- but personal happiness matters too! Your happiness should not be solely contingent on your children's lives. It is important for parents to make their children realise this in the early years because tomorrow these kids are going to a part of larger and more complex relationships. I believe it is important not to go through the guilt of owing it back to your parents since they have done everything for you. Gratitude towards parents should exist. However, it shouldn't be shown because of the burden of guilt we carry due to all the sacrifices our parents make during their life time.

It is perfectly possible to shower love and guidance to children and at the same time make them realise that your happiness doesn't rely on what they do. Also, living in an Indian society parents begin to expect in return from their children simply because they feel they have the right to demand for all the sacrifices they have done in the early years. And when expectaions are not met, relationships get sour.

I believe, the key to any relationship to work out is personal happiness. When you are happy with yourself and not dependent on anyone else for your joy, the relationship gets stronger and blooms to be more beautiful. There should always be a want for something and not a need for it.

Parenthood is a role... not an all-consuming identity!!

Thoughts...

How easy is it to make a blunder?
How easy is it to ask for forgiveness?
And how easy is it to actually forgive?

Is forgiving someone so tough? I wonder!